Aint No Boundaries

Friday is the most beautiful day of the week, as always. While i was still schooling, friday signalled a shorter curriculum. It too signalled the end of the week; a break from the school work, from travelling so early and lastly from the feeling of being so exhausted. Now, friday means alot too when i'm working. It's a day i look forward most to and the day i feel the most happy.

Yesterday made me realised how shielded i was from the harsh reality of life. It made me realised there are really many unfortunate ones around that i really didn't believe it existed. There was this incident that made me really traumatised and a little upset although i didn't verbalise or show it.

While we were walking out of 'A', we heard a scream followed by a girl somewhere our age jumping up and down with the mum looking really helpless. Soon, they heeded to 'E ' and she broke loose, trying to escape from the clutches of e nurses. There came the words ' Dont catch me! Dont catch me! ' She didn't want to return to the ' enclosed'. She doesn't want to leave her parents and grandma or even her little brother. She knows exactly where she is heading towards. It's just like hell for any normal beings: the 18 levels of hell. There came her grandma that really made me feel worse. She was old and frail, with lushy white hair and was walking with great difficulty. I could sense worry from her eyes and hands holding unto her grand-daughter, bringing her into the ' E'. I bet, she must have really struggled alot and pained her so much to have to do it personally. p.s: it was the first time i really seen it myself.

Chatted at Madjack for really long last night, in lieu of Belle's birthday celebration. We talked about alot. Our childhood, our parents, money and many other incident we witnessed and experienced at work. It dawned on me. I was really so shielded. I never was caned before. I could swear at home. The only time my dad hit me was when i was holding unto my bolster so hard totally reluctant to go to school in my primary days. Even as i was in primary 2, i forged my mum's signature and my dad was called to school. I was never hitted. Even when i had to spend my afternoons doing detention cause i was late pratically everyday, they never scolded me. Maybe if she did, i would be a different person from now. I would be more sensible and less naive about everything. But would i be this optimistic still?

I'm so afraid. So afraid i will not be able to take failures. able to face the harsh reality of life when i go to work. Perhaps my decision of not taking psychology was right. Antz was right that i wont be able to take it.

I hope in time to come, i'll be a stronger person. Someone who will be able to help the less fortunate with all i can.

It's time to plan ahead.

Thanks for yesterday, 4th June 2009. I realised how life really is.

Work has been pretty mundane these days. nothing interesting to look forward to or talk about. However, being in the call centre can be enjoying at times. Especially, when you get to hear many of the conversations made. It never fails to tickle me.

Been trying to rush through my driving lessons the past few days or rather weeks. Although the chances of completing it and passing my test before school starts in august is pretty slim, i'll still give it my best shot. Annling shall be our motivation :) i wish.

The world is full of beautiful scenics. Glaciers, mountains, waterfalls and all. I hope to earn enough money before i'm 30. My dream is to backpack all around the world , be it the urban, sub urban or even the different cities in the world.
That shall be my goal and motivation. p.s: sky diving looks like a pretty cool thing to do while i was reading up on it.

The importance of money cannot be undermined.

A person with no big ambitions, no big aspirations.
Just wants to travel around the world with my little back pack.
I might even consider working in each destination to earn enough money for the next. * does it sound silly?

; a meaningful life. ahead.